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Promises and Goals

Okay, here’s the deal.

I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I’ve been thinking recently about all the big things like careers and families and all those kinds of things and I have a list of things (many of them contradicting) that I want to achieve but none of them seem obtainable or manageable or in some cases even possible. I’ve been in a funk because I’ve spent all this time looking at 100%, and sitting at the 0% mark thinking–“I’ll never get there, what’s the point?”

But then I remembered something. I was thirteen-years-old and had just been assigned the first real research project I would ever have to do. It wasn’t just a “read a bit about the topic and write a page or two,”  It was at least a dozen credible sources, a long, well-written paper, visual aids, and a mostly memorized twenty-minute presentation to be given in front of my teachers and peers. Just the requirements for the assignment sat on three front and back pages. I was always a child prone to dramatics and exaggeration, so I sat at the dining room table with those three pages and saw my good grades, my dreams of college, my hopes of having a good life, all slipping away because I was overwhelmed by the project in front of me. It had been a good thirteen-year run, but I was sure this was going to beat me.

My mother turned to me with the appropriate level of exasperation for her oldest child who had just declared she was never getting into college because of an eight-grade-project and said “You’re right. It is a lot of work and it is going to take a lot of time. But you are absolutely never going to finish if you don’t start. Focus on what you can get done today.” I continued to insist that I would never be able to finish it because I was thirteen and a brat, and ended up being sent to my room for back talking–

I continued to insist that I would never be able to finish it because I was thirteen and a brat, and ended up being sent to my room for back talking–but I’ll be damned if I didn’t finish that project (got a B- to boot), still maintained my good grades, and graduated from a good University. And in spite of my recent funk, I am living a good life.

Whats the cliche? A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. If you look at your destination a thousand miles away, of course it is overwhelming. It’s really hard to get to 100 percent from zero. But it’s not so hard to get from zero percent to one. Then one to two. And so on. And so forth.

So here’s the promise.  Monday through Friday–hopefully at noon eastern, but I won’t make that a concrete promise just yet–I will have something here.  It might be a piece of fiction. It might be the part of me that is an overdramatic teenager still who will declare one bad date means that I will be single forever. It might be an update on how I’m still working to clean up this site and make it something I can be proud of and love.  I can almost guarantee that at one point it will be me complaining about how I complain too much.

I’m still not sure where my 100% is or where my thousand miles will take me. But I know I’ll never get there if I don’t start. Here’s to first steps.


Bekah Beth

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Posted by on October 16, 2017 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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Revamping

Hey there,

I know things have become a little haphazard around here.  For those four people who actually come and read here every day—I’m sorry. Life is doing that big changes thing, and I never respond well to changes. On top of that, I’m hitting that quarter-life crisis thing where I’m trying to figure out what I actually want to do with my life or where I am going or what I want to make out of the time that I have to live in this world.

This blog has fallen by the way side—pushed over for other life events and stories just posted for the sake of getting something up instead of the fact that I am proud of them. The days of genuinely enjoying the works that I put up, but instead most days just being glad I have SOMETHING to put up.

I don’t like that. I love to write. I want to get to sit down and write to be the bright spot of my day again. And a big part of that is going to be turning this site into something that I am proud of again. Because right now I am not.

So—as I’m sure anyone could see through my list of excuses—I’m taking a small break from updating stories on this site. I am going to dedicate solid time to making this site what I need it to be. I am going to spend some time writing and editing and getting pieces that I’m proud of on here. I am going to turn this into something that I will proudly call mine.

I will be back sometime after Labor Day with something amazing. I hope you all will meet me back here then for But So What Version 2.0. And I hope that it will be something amazing for us all.

Thank you for your patience,

Bekah-Beth

 
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Posted by on August 14, 2017 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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Birthday Week

Just like every June, I’m coming toward that whole anniversary of my birth thing.  And, like every June since I was old enough to remember, I am being an absolute child about it. There will be a tiara and a happy birthday button and all kinds of other nonsense that really doesn’t fit with a woman who lives on her own, pays her own bills, and who is (as her doctor so kindly pointed out at her last check up) pushing thirty.

But, I am an adult and I do pay my own bills and I’m not thirty yet so I can decide to wear those tiaras and buttons and maybe even a sash if I’m feeling extra festive.

I’ve also given myself a present of minimal work this week, taking off anything that isn’t absolutely required of my to-do list (and pawning off some of the work that is actually required to other people, for that matter).

So–I’m taking the week off. I’ll see you guys on Friday for Legal Theft, then our reguluarly scheduled five a week starting again next Monday. Have a good week guys!

 
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Posted by on June 19, 2017 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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Congratulations

As of Friday, my parents have gone three for three in children with Bachelor’s Degrees. My brother and sister graduated together from Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University, WAY more commonly known as Virginia Tech.

My brother, who took time off on his way to his degree, is now graduating with way more fire and focus and desire than I have ever had about my future or my career. He’s using the degree to get the certifications he needs and to start working his way up the ladder.

My sister seems a bit more flexible in her plans. I know she wants to sign up with AmeriCorps, and she had expressed a desire to work in the non-profit sector, but as she told me on Friday, “It’s hard to believe it’s really over. After High School, it was just four more years of the same but different. Now–I’m really done.”  She’ll figure it out though. Our family seems to have luck on our side, plan or not, we land on our feet.

 

I am beyond proud of the both of them. I am so lucky to get to call myself their older sister. And even though I’m pretty sure they stopped reading this blog years ago (if they every actually did) I felt the need to say it in such a public and open forum.

Way to go, guys!

 
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Posted by on May 15, 2017 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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Goodbye Soda, My Friend…

Anyone who tells you caffeine is not a drug is a liar. Anyone who tells you that you can’t get addicted is a liar. Anyone who tells you that caffeine withdrawal isn’t that bad is probably also a liar.

I’ve decided to kick the habit of drinking two liters (conservative estimate) of soda a day, on the account of I don’t want to die before I’m fifty. I’ll be spending today curled up in bed in pain and feeling sorry for myself, while I am brought fruit juice and encouraging words from people who love me. I am allowing myself one days worth pity party.

I’ll get back to your regularly scheduled fiction tomorrow.  Thanks for your patience.

 
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Posted by on March 7, 2017 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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New Years Resolutions: 2017 Edition

Okay Guys! Hi there and Happy New Year!

It’s finally 2017. New Year, New Start, New Goals, and New Hopes. It can only get better from here, right?

Alright, plans for the year. I am going to continue to post Monday through Friday, a piece of fiction every day. However, over the last year, I’ve fallen into a bad habit of writing pieces that are only one or two hundred words, and not leaving any room for the stories to grow—or honestly, get good. This year, I am going to try to make sure that all my pieces are at least five hundred words or more. The only exception to this rule is for the occasional 99-word challenge that I do like to completely every now and then, but I am going to try to do no more than two or three of those a month. I also have plans for a new once-a-week serial to go up—and I know that I’ve tried to start a couple of them over the past little while, but this time I’m hoping to have the first ten parts or so ready to go before I post, so hopefully that will give me two months or so to get the work finished while the first sections are posting—Which was all just a long way of saying that I hope to have a complete serial for you guys this year.

I also plan on cleaning up the blog a lot this year. I want to make it easier to go from part to part with my already started/completed serials. I also want to clean up the categories tags, and maybe even make a page for reoccurring characters so that you can easily find all the stories involving characters that I visit rather frequently.  If you guys have any recommendations, please let me know.

Now my annual reminder that if you guys like my work a lot and have some spare change hanging around, I do have a Patreon. The button is always on the sidebar of the blog, along with all the details of that. This year I also have a paypal.me link, so if you can’t commit to a monthly payment, but want to throw a couple bucks my way for a cup of coffee, now you can. Of course, if you cannot give, I’m still grateful for you coming back to read again and again. I only hope I can keep providing you with the kinds of stories that you want to read.

I know there aren’t that many of you that keep coming back again and again, but I know there are some. I’m so grateful for you guys. I’ve always wanted to tell stories that people enjoy, and even if it’s just a handful of you or more, I’m so glad that I someone is here to read. Thank you, guys, for sticking with me through the rough 2016, and here’s hoping we can make 2017 even better than we ever could have imagined.

I love you all,

Bekah-Beth ❤

 

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…And a Happy New Year…

Well, 2016 is finally coming to a close. This has been a interesting year for many people, and that hasn’t been any different for me. A lot good. Even more bad. To be honest, I’m ready for the year to be over.

But I’m a bright side of life kind of person (or at least I try very hard to be) so even though 2016 has been terrible for me, 2017 is right around the corner. And frankly, it can only go up from here.

I’m taking the last week of the year off–because family and friends and holidays are the way to end a year who has not treated you well.  Stay safe and warm through the end of the year, and I will see you all January 2, 2017.

Have a happy new year, guys. I’ll see you soon.


Bekah-Beth

 
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Posted by on December 23, 2016 in BekahBeth's Thoughts

 

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